Category: Personal Reflections
My personal thoughts on life and its meaning, including what I am currently dealing with and reflecting on decisions past and future
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Today was the first productive day I’ve had in weeks. I finally deleted the 900+ unread emails in my inbox. I responded back to some text messages from friends and family. I reached out to the wedding planner and venue regarding payment plans. I reauthorized my insurance credentials for my private practice. All in all,…
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Sleep. Sleep. More sleep. All I can do these days in my free moments is sleep. My mind races in a million directions as I juggle responsibilities new and old; starting a business, caring for family, making content, running a household. Yet all I can do in my moments of spare breath is sleep. I…
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“You stupid fucking idiot. How could you not realize? Why didn’t you see the signs?” These are the words that have been on repeat for several days. When I learned a group of people I had put in so much of my trust and confidence for this new phase in my life went ahead and…
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There is something exciting about starting a new job, and also something dreadful. The brain can crave novelty, but the brain can also crave familiarity; it is up to us to feel out which one our brain is craving in any given moment, or which one demands greater attention to satisfy. Tomorrow begins my final…
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I wear my masks with a twisted sense of pride and shame, upset that I no longer recognize the face beneath. We all wear masks to some extent; it’s how humans survive. But the urge to mask in every place, every day, every moment of waking existence begins to take its toll and distorts reality…
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It’s the most wonderful time of the year. At least it’s supposed to be. I have lots to be grateful for, thankful for this year and in this season of my life. I have a partner who loves me and whom I love in return. A wonderful family of in-laws that are kind and generous…
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I wake up and look at my phone: 5:24 AM. I feel my heart racing and I’m drenched in sweat, but I’m also freezing. I spring out of bed and lean against the wall to orient myself. “Am I sick?” I ask no one in particular. Usually my morning rumbling signals to my dog it’s…
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The alarm blares for about 10 seconds before the sirens wail too much and I want to scream. My fingers desperately smack the end table, hoping to hit the ‘off’ button, but instead knock over the plastic Moulin Rouge! cup filled with Sprite and vodka, spilling the concoction of last night’s mistakes onto the carpet.…
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I’m not the most spiritual person in the world, but I do like to believe there is some intelligent design to the universe. That life isn’t entirely random, and there is something looking at us, guiding us, if not always looking out for us. On the flip side, I do believe we are the masters…
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I want my work to be meaningful. I want my work to valuable. I’m tired of working jobs that lead to burnout of the mind, body, and spirit. Jobs shouldn’t cost you your time at the expense of your life. They shouldn’t force you to choose between your shift and a funeral, wedding, or birthday.…